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So I got this micro roller in the mail a couple months ago and have been using it a couple nights a week to help with my acne scarring on my face. A couple months ago I went off my birth control and then went back on it .. it completely screwed up my hormones and gave me some awful breakouts. Unfortunately for me, whenever I get a break out the scar tends to stay red and annoying and doesn't go away.
The micro roller is really easy to use and doesn't inflict a lot of pain.. and the best part is.. it doesn't cost a fortune!
You can find this micro roller online for only $50- SHOP HERE
All you need to do is clean it with 70-90% alchohol first and then roll it on your face in criss cross motions on any areas which are acne scarred. I rolled them for 20-25 seconds each way until I switched areas.
After I am done rolling, I put some Eucerin face reparing lotion on my face and let it soak in over night. Literally in a month I saw some amazing results. I never would go out without makeup, and now I will go out without makeup.
My skin isn't 100% but it is 10000% better than it was. I am learning to love the skin I am in and this little micro roller helped me do that!
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Last night I was up until 3-4am.. right before I go to bed I call in my spirit guides and Archangel Michael to clear anything from me that is negativly impacting my life. I surround myself with white light and let go of any attached energies from my cellular memory. Sometime after I completed my white light prayer, I kept getting a voice in my head. I kept getting all these words and I had to wake up and put them in my phone. I had to type them out. Whatever it was telling me to type these words, it was like a sweet release. I asked Archangel Michael to release anything that is attached to me that is negative and that is exactly what I did. I woke up, starting typing a text and spend a couple minutes laying down and staring at the ceiling before I pressed SEND. As soon as I pressed send, it was like all that baggage was lifted off my shoulders, all those feelings, emotions, attachements were lifted off of me and released.. finally. I felt like I was half asleep when I was texting or creating these words to send, almost like someone took over my body and was writing everything I needed to say and everything I needed to get into the Universe.
One of my downfalls is that when I fall in love with someone I put all my energy into them, and anything else that is happening in my life is on the sideline. Which is so bad because I never get the same love in return. I decided to stop focusing on boys and start to bring my FULL energy into Samii Ryan and By Samii Ryan. I have so many amazing things lined up for me, working with new business partner for By Samii Ryan, so many personal projects that are going to set me up for life. But while all these things were happening on the side my energy wasn't 100% on them.. and it should have been. And now it is.
It is funny I read my horoscope today for Aries it said;
You are good at many things, Aries. You can think on your feet. You are a fabulous manger. You know how to get what you want. When it comes to your ability to express yourself sensually or emotionally, you may have some trouble. You don't always feel comfortable saying or showing how you feel. It's a vulnerability thing- you don't want to appear weak or under anyone's control, and somehow to you that translates to that kind of expresson. You can still be strong and show your emotions, and that's something important for you to work on, as you may now be discovering.
BAM. That is another one of my downfalls, I love hard, but expressing myself is hard because I want to be so strong, I don't want to anyone who hurt me to see me cry, to see me torn up. But you know what.. whenever I do this-- express myself in the middle of the night I always get a text back saying "Don't text me back" and then I get it.. That is all I needed to move on, it happened before, and it has happened again. Right now I feel happier than ever, stronger. wiser, and more determined than ever to complete all my dreams.. Because as soon as I focus on myself, my accessory line.. everything will fall into place. A part of me knows that a boy isn't in my near future because I get distracted to easily by them. I need my 100% love and energy on me.
I am free.
Hello My LOVES!
Today I wanted to do a video showing you my updated foundation and contour routine! My skin has gotten 1000% better and I am loving every minute of it!
First things first I am wearing a wig from Lavant Garde Hair:
Second thing, I got some AMAZING lash extenions in LA from Arianna Montazem (firstname.lastname@example.org for apts)
Thats pretty much all the things I wanted to go through haha! Here are the products I use to get a flawless face!
- 1) Physcians Formula Green Color Corrector
- 2) Nuetrogena Skin Clearing Foundation 80
- 3) Maybelline Foundation Stick (Light)
- 4) Nuetrogena Skin Clearing Powder
- 5) Too Face Bronzer Chocolate Soleil
- 6) Milani Bronzer 06 Golden Baked Bronzer
- 7) Tarte Cosmetics Blush Captivating
- 8) Tarte Cosmetics Gel Eyebrow Pot Taupe
- 9) Naked 3 Palette Light Pink Shadow
- 10) Essence Crazy Volume Mascara
- 11) Wet & Wild Black Liquid Eyeliner
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Love you all- thank you for the support!
Ello my lover bugs.. recently I have been going through some personal issues dealing with a breakup. I swear if you look at my Buzznet page one day you see me so in love, swooning, and the next day I am a bitter, depressed person. I think with any break you go through stages.. love, sadness, anger, then your over it. Right now I am in the anger stage. I don't want to have any anger towards love, but I do. So I have been reading The Power and today I turned to the page "The Secret To Relationships" so let's see what I am missing here.
"Life presents everything to you so that you can choose what you love. And past of the gift of life is that you are given all kinds of people, so you can choose what you love in those people and turn away what you don't love."
Good point.. let's pick out the good things I loved in him and only focus on the positive right now.
- Made me laugh
- Great Lips
- Chemistry was insane
- Decent style, can be better
- Treated me like a lady
- Loved me
- Had a great job
- Loved his job
- I could learn from
Okay, now that we have listed out some of the positives, let's continue with the Secret of Relationships..
"You are not meant to manufacture love for qualities in a person you don't love, but simply to turn away without giving them any feeling. Turning away from what you don't love in someone means you're relaced about it, and you know life is giving you a choice. It doesn't mean that you argue with them to prove to they're wrong or you criticize or blame them, or that you want to change them because you think your right. Because if you do any of these things, you are not giving love-- big time!"
Let's let that sink in... I do not want to have any negative or angry feelings towards him, I'm just so hurt it is something to blame it on. So as it says above you can't argue with them to prove they are wrong. So I might as well let him figure that out for himself. I didn't do anything wrong to end the relationship. But I guess I can not change the fact that he is afraid of commitment and when our relationship was going really fast he pulled back and disappeared. I can't criticize or blame him for doing any of that to me. That is how how he felt and I can't be angry because of how someone feels. I can only move forward and let go of the past. Because in reality that's how he is, and I can't change a person. I can only give love.
I need to focus on myself, give love, spread love. Stop focusing on the negative and focus on the positive. This is my last post about me venting about my breakup .. time to have Samii Ryan vision.. make my dreams happen with no distraction.
READY, SET, GO.
OH SNAP!!! Check out my new hair! Brought to you by Lavant Garde Hair! :)
Check em out HERE.
I write and write and write. About everything. I have so many doctuments in my computer of me just rambling. From my experience with my life, to the men who damned me, and to the one that I fell in love with. I love writing down my life, I think someday I will write a book. I haven't decided what it will be about. Love, heartbreak, experience? I don't know I feel like I have delt with it all and everyone goes through those points in their life. I am not the only one! I have been trying to keep myself busy, to fuel my mind with positivity. I have been turning to The Secret, The Power, The Magic to guide my life and to make my soul ache with light.
People who have great lives talk more about what they love. By doing so, they gain unlimited access to all the good in life, and they are as free as the birds that soar in the sky. To have a great life, break the bars of the cage that is jailing you: give love, talking only about what you love, and love will set you free.
"Then you will know the truth and the truth will set you free"
This woman refused to talk about what she didn't love but instead chose to give love and think and talk about what she loved, and in doing so, she set herself free from hardship and suffering, and received a beautiful life.
Love is being alert. You have to be alert to feel the love of everything around you. You have to be aware of everything that's around you to love, otherwise you will miss things. As I type and type in my Word doctuments about my love in my life. I am just sharing more and more love. Even though they are memories. They will always be in my mind.
So for now my friends, let's fuel ourselves with love. Do not waste one moment in regret, for to think feelingly of the mistakes of the past is to re-infect you. Don't live in the past, don't live for the future. Live for the present.. right here and now.
I found these entertaining and so heartwrenchingly true. Boys, men, guys.. what ever you want to call this foreign creatures always come into your life as a lesson or a blessing.. I know I say that a lot. I am known to wear my heart on my sleeve, love so fast it is terrifying. But that is okay! Because I am greatful for everything, and for everyone who has come into my life. Every single person helped me become the person I am today. I am so proud of the woman I am becoming and there is so much to look forward to in the future.
I found these quotes on Tumblr a while ago and had them stored in my "Notes" section on my phone. They are funny but true heart quotes about breakups and the seperation a woman feels once their man leaves them. I would say they are advice to all the woman out there to beware.. But at the end of the day guess what? Guess who will be the only person always there for you.. yourself..
- When a boy who leaves goosebumps on every inch of your skin tries to play you his favorite song, don't let him. He'll get it stuck in your head and under your finger tips and when he leaves, you won't be able to listen to it without feeling like your choking.
- Don't let him touch you all over no matter how much you want to feel him against you. Leave a few spots untouched so that when you're sleeping alone again, at least your left wrist and an inch of your right hip won't sting with the remaining burn of his mouth.
- Don't watch the sunset with him. He'll poison it. You won't be able to look at the sky without swallowing a mouthful of him.
- Don't mistake wasps for butterflies. Sometimes when you feel your stomach flutter and your hands start to shake it's pain, not love. (love this one)
- Just because he tells you he loves you doesn't mean he's going to stay.
- It's okay to delete his number after he kisses the pretty girl he met when he was drunk. It's okay to leave when he hurts you. You don't have to keep falling for him.
- When he tells you that you're beautiful remember that you were beautiful before him too.
- After you kiss him, remember to wash your mouth out right away so he doesn't burn into your tounge.
- He'll kiss you in the rain and take you to the little coffee shops. He'll brush your hair out of your eyes and kiss your nose. He'll grab your waist and whisper in your ear, but 6 months later you'll find yourself drunk texting him that you miss him.. and he won't respond.
- BOTTOM LINE----- Your heart is going to break a million times. It's going to feel like the world is falling apart around you. Your lungs will stop working some nights. You find yourself grabbing at your bones trying to hold yourself together. You're going to feel like your dying. It's going to be okay. You'll find someone else to kiss you goodnight.
It's okay to fall in love.. it's okay to get hurt. Because you will be okay.. I promise you.
I am so obsessed with these shoes from T.U.K I wanted to do a sick giveaway to see how you would style them up! For me I would wear a big tee shirt, some thigh highs and to top it off with some TUK Creepers! Ugh to die for.
I will be giving away my fave pair which are THESE Black Suede Pointed Stacked Creepers! How cute?!
How To Enter:
2. show us your outfit that would be complete with a new pair of T.U.K's using #BUZZNETlovesTUK
3. you'll be entered to win my favorite pair of TUK's!
Goodluck! I will pick the winner next Friday!
Can't wait to see how you would style your creepers!
So I finally got around to doing such a highly requested video of mine.. all about my hair! From the hair cut to the weave, styling and maintence it is all in here!
I get my hair cut by Matt Starner at Blondies Salon
These are the products I use on my hair:
- Sexy Hair Blow Out Heat Defense Spray
- One & Only Aragon Oil
- Shimmer Lights Purple Shampoo (for when I dye my hair)
- Keratin Complex Color Care Shampoo
- Keratin Complex Vanilla Bean Deep Conditoner
I use Hot Tools 1 inch curling iron, and Chi flat iron!
If you have any other questions I can answer feel free to comment below!
Also, stay tuned for my new personal style blog with my friend Alysha Nett called THE BLEACHED NICHE! It is going to be super cool, edgy, and loaded with a ton of street style and ink!
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AHH it has been a year in the making, but my sleeve on my left arm is finally complete! I was so so so happy I was able to get this piece of art done by my tattoo artist, Josh Bodwell. I have been going to him since I was 16 and I will probably have him complete my right arm sleeve (whenever I decide to work on it). So my sleeve is an astrological based sleeve with my families zodiac signs on it! Jill is a Virgo, Meg is a Cancer, my Dad is a Cancer, and my Mom is a Leo! We filled in the background space with sweet starsm starburts, a galaxy, Saturn and even a moon! I am pumped on it. Hehehe!
What do you think of it? Josh Bodwell is actually going to be starring in a new show on A&E called Epic Ink! Be sure to tune in at the end of August!